Taken during a wedding, which explains the baju kurung.

So where did I go for the past 4 months?

To hell, a great metaphor for my year 2 exams. It was tough and time consuming. But the best would be, it's stressful. I had group work - which I don't plan on doing saying anything about it because it's just lots of misunderstanding and just a Deal with It kind of shit, lots of drawings here and there and many more things that a fashion student is doing.

Trust me, I enjoy school and I want to enjoy school so that I can take my time and mind away from all the negativity and worries. I've been doing great using school as a distraction from my everyday life.

You see, I go to school at 9am. I'll do all my school things at school till maybe 6pm or later till 12am or so, if only I'm in the mood to stay back. But honestly, I'm not a staying back person because I get easily distracted and I want to do things at my own 'standard'. If I do stayback, it's just a there-made-decision. I prefer doing work at home because I already bathe and shower before deciding if it's time to do work or nah.

But thank god for the one month holiday now.

All I'm doing is waking up at 12pm, watching game play-throughs, watch animes and my favourite tv series, eat junk food mostly and then, sleep at 3am. It's been a thing for the past week and I'm glad I did that because next week, nah. Let's change - hopefully.

Taken right after the group work photoshoot.

Friends........ Here's a topic I do want to let out on because it's something that should be said there and there only. But some things in life aren't met to be said and you should just walk it off, especially when if you do open your mouth, it tends to get bad. Yeah, you know where I'm going with this.

What I want to say to this person is, and I think I might be direct so hey:

Life isn't a box of chocolates nor a bouquet of flowers. It might be that but you have to look at the situation and make the best out of it. You should not expect things from people - expect them to understand and if they don't, you act like a certain way. If they do, you think that they are pitying you and making fun of you, blah blah.

Listen, there's this thing called suck it up. You either confront or just be professional and ignore your thoughts and feelings. You have to be nice to everyone, regardless if they have stab your heart or bought you the wrong flavour of drink or cupcakes or whatever.

Hierarchy doesn't make sense especially in friendships.

You're friends because you have a common denominator, or liking (for simple english). May it be, you're good friends or just classmates - you still have something in common. Honestly, if you start nitpicking the little things in a friendship or even relationship, you aren't being sincere at all. You can point fingers to everyone and be the victim but you have to self reflect. Problems in relationships are caused by two individuals - may it be the other one is more heavier than the other party but it's still by two or more individuals. 

Involving other things in a friendship is fine because you are friends and friends should understand but honestly,

It's either you suck it up or talk it out, but never, ever! Sulk and expect people to suddenly read your mind. This ain't no relationship, it's friendship, for god sake.

I did not plan that to be that long. I'm just going to say it there and there because I couldn't be bothered. Like really though, in my life this is how I 'dictate' it. You want to leave, leave. You want to stay, stay. You can't force someone to stay and hope that they are being sincere and genuine. No, it doesn't work that way.

If whoever reads this and you think you perfectly fit the shoes, go ahead. But if you do feel like its you, do something and change about yourself, will you?

Change of topics!



So you might have seen this on my instagram with this two gorgeous ladies, who are my friends.

I actually went for the Cartier exhibition two days ago. This isn't something shocking but - oh my god, there's so many things that I can only afford in 10 years time. The cheapest thing I've seen was a ring that's $1000 and perfume $100. To be fair, the perfume isn't that great to my senses but you do you, Cartier!

I did get the sample of it. It's somewhere at home now. Anywho, that day was eventful because my butt became sore after sitting on a chair for two hours eating and chatting my life away with my good friends. So blessed to have them in my life, really. They are amazing individuals and I'm glad to call them my friends.

Yikes, this is long af.

There is going to be a vlog coming real soon. Expect it as a new years gift? I don't know. Though, I might post a snippet of it on my instagram before 2018 ends. I might be posting a daily make up products or review something because I'm bored (good excuse?).

Till then, thank you so much for reading this long post.

Have a great weekends ahead.

Love, Amani.

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DETAILS:

1st Picture

• Baju Kurung from Malaysia. Totally forgot where I bought it. 

2nd Picture

• T-shirt from SOPA (I think)
• Pants from Uniqlo
• Camera Bag from -

 3rd Picture

• White shirt from H&M
• Checkered Overall from Cotton On
• Bag from my grandmother
• Shoes from PUMA